Whilst perusing tumblr late one night / early one morning, I came across a picture with the loaded question "what keeps you awake at night?" scrawled across in easy, flowing text. And unlike the many gorgeous pictures I scroll past on tumblr each day, the message resonated. And it got me thinking.
What does my subconscious deem so important as to let such things race about my mind when I'm trying to catch a bit o'shut eye? I pondered this whilst sipping an unholy number of cups of tea (and the occasional pumpkin spice latte) and am trying to condense it into what you are about to read. I can't promise this will be what keeps me awake forever (which is why I'm breaking it down into segments, so every so often you get a view of my thoughts), but in this moment, whilst my life is as it is...This is one of many things that keep me awake;
Missing him. I hate to start a series with something that screams "dependent" on another being, but I'm just one soul, and the truth is that the distance between myself and the man I have fallen deeply in love with saddens and excites and hurts and uplifts me. Each time we see each other, my heart feels full and happy and I feel as though I get a glimpse into how heaven would feel. Each time we part, I am saddened. And the echoes of those feelings quite often have me lying awake and counting my blessings. And the nights I am lucky enough to share with him, I am kept awake by his breath on my cheek, and the way he looks as he falls asleep.
Soppiness aside, there's one thing. How about you...What keeps you awake at night?
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